After a three year's battle against Death, he came to take her tonight. But as she was thankful for his blessings last week, she will be grateful again. She just stopped breathing tonight, without pain, without suffocation or paralysis . This morning I woke up to find her hand cold, as they always were the last weeks, but also the rest of her body was cold and she was motionless.
Those who knew her, know that despite that she only became 32 years that had at least double the lifespan. Even in her last months she was active, fully aware of the richness, joy and urgency of life and caring for others as if she was not struck by such a harsh fate.
Those who only got to know her via the blog could experience the same by reading her book. Her book was her literary heritage, the highlight of her intellectual and artistic achievements and next to the love for me, family and friends the thing that made her want to live on, fight, get all out of life. As you will know, it can be bought via her website www.gracechow.info , it meant so much to her that reading it will be the best tribute to her I can imagine.
So now she is dead and as she says: She found peace now. She was not religious, felt most attracted to the Buddhist way of approaching life and death. She wanted to let go, as you should as a Buddhist, of all desires and longings so the soul can find its absolute peace, far from the worries of the world. Still letting go was difficult, she loved me and the world too much. She pitied those who loved her madly, because now we have to live on and deal with the loss while she found her peace.
She will never return and still she will never leave.
Thank you all for reading the blogs and sending her such inspirational, loving reactions. You still can mail me and when I find the time I will answer.
I wish all of you all the strength and love and happiness you can possibly reach. Don't let severe illness take away your pride and positiveness about living, let Grace be an example to all of us.